Today is supposed to be my Mum's 49th birthday and today I want to give you a piece of advice we have all been guilty of taking for granted: Cherish every moment you have with your loved ones. Life can be so cruel one day all you may have is the memories, keep them fresh make more be happy and love to your fullest. Missing you every day Mum xxx xxx Lyn Elizabeth Archer 07-02-62 - 15-02-10 xxx ;

Zen

Anyone watch Zen? its like watching an old western All men have english accents town baddies all have London accents country baddies are Irish, sexy availiable women have itallian accents, any non availiable women plain english. The music is obviously produced by same people as hustle which is annoying at times you get confused to which program your watching.

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A response to another bloggers question;

What is a person without work? Can any of us really be alive without a purpose, without a role, an identity?.....The ability to go out to work and feel your contributing to society is something we do not consciously realise we need till your out of work. it gives us a role an identity. We of course benefit from it financially but more importantly emotionally. Sense of self worth, pride, the enjoyment you get when you feel you have earned your day off rather than it just being another date on the calendar.  The lottery winner lifestyle is something we all have dreamt of at some point however i wonder how would it affect our feelings of self worth (personal not financial). 24 hours is a long period of time to fill and im sure after a while the out of work millionaire would get bored a lot quicker than we think. 

Surrender

On a hot summers night when the air is dry, and temperatures are high, A sudden flash of light across the sky, theres movement in the air tonight, Out of nowhere it does appear, The heavens open releasing billions of lost tears, The need to reach out and catch one in my hand, feeling their moisture on my skin, To feel is to live to live is to be alive, if you cannot feel can you truly be alive? The need to stand there in nakedness, To catch those falling tears on my skin, To make up for all of mine lost over the years, Head spinning, Heart racing, Life passing me by, Flying high somewhere near the falling sky, Cant see the ground anymore, one hear my call? Last chance, last dance, lost romance, I give up i give in holdng out my hands, Surrendering in the knowledge and in the truth, that all is lost, Oh! what a price, what a cost...........

Decisions

“Decisions” Even at my age, I have come to realise that the smallest of decisions can have the greatest of impacts on ones life. You never know what or how one choice is going to affect you. You will never know whom you could meet or what you could see if for instance you left your house 10 mins earlier than planned to get somewhere. There is an irony to it all really. Life is Full of ‘What If’s’ and I suppose it can be scary to think about. You have to decide if your happy with the decision you have made otherwise you will always be dwelling on the ‘What If’s’! No matter how hard you try those ‘What If's’ will always be at the back of your mind. Well there always at the back of mine What if?.............. Think about just for a second. ;

Heartbreak

Heartbreak There have been more than one man in my life that has told me that they love me. When I first wrote this piece I was an 18 year old who to be honest found immensely scary. However, there has only been one that I have said it back to. But the thing is that makes me feel bad but to be honest i dont think it should be said if its not meant. What makes people fall in love? I no love that all consuming feeling of wholeness and emptiness at the same time. The longing, the needing and the intense feeling of fulfilment and happiness. Your head spinning 100 miles an hour. The feeling that your feet are no longer on the ground. The fear of the feeling and of the situation going away or not being reciprocated. I also know the pain of Heartbreak when the one you love has gone and you lose all will to exist. The sickening cramps in your body that feel there ripping you apart. The realisation that the euphoria has gone and will not come back. The knowing that the memories of the good and the bad will always be with you. It is the worst thing I have ever felt the gut wrenching fear. Loneliness..

Knowing………

Knowing……… We are constantly looking for direction and insight in how to live this life in the best way. If only we knew from the start that there isn’t any answers to all the questions we ask. And if only someone had told us that, there is no easy pain free way to live it! We have to learn from our mistakes and the more times we are hit the stronger we will get. Well that’s the idea any way. All I no is that it makes you think twice before making the same mistake again. The thing is what happens if you don’t want to learn from the mistake and you just cant give up on it so you walk back into the situation knowing it’s a mistake. Leaving yourself open to more heartbreak and you don’t care your just wishing the ending will be different this time……..

After all this time.

After all this time. After all this time, calling you my own, Just find out that all along I've been alone, Now you have really gone. How do I make this right? Now I've lost the will to fight. I love you with my heart and soul, But however hard I've tried, I've not managed to reach my goal, How do I make this right? Now I've lost the will to fight. I've wept I've hurt I've bled, My hearts filled with dread, Now its time to bow my head, To withdraw from this war, And look to times ahead, How do I make this right? Now I've lost the will to fight. All this time, you've gone along, Pretending all is not wrong, You're the one, who's lost, I hope you realise the cost, My heart my soul, You've lost it now, I don't need to make this right, Now its time for you to fight. Now I have gone…

Loss

Loss.. When a relationship is over and a companion or lover leaves, we find our selves in a state of mourning but what are we mourning exactly? Are we mourning the loss of the person or of the situation? I think of course the individual is to be missed but I think that deep down inside what we really miss is the comfort and the intimacy. I am not on about sex if it were even part of the relationship, but the physical companionship the tenderness and affection the person to who u curl up into and snuggle with to watch a movie. The hugs and the kisses, the way your head fits perfectly on there shoulder, the way there kiss finds its way to that place on your neck that makes you melt without actually intending to, the knowing smile and oh the feeling of safety. I feel that when a relationship that has involved whatever level of closeness u have had ends u start to notice your personal space once again. It is said that a persons personal space is 4ft around them and that only lovers and family members tend to be let into that space. I didnt believe this fact but I put it to the test and it seems its right. You dont even let acquaintances stay that close to you after the initial greeting. Why is it that we protect our personal space so much when at times we are just yearning for somebody to step over the boundary? I dont think it matters how long the relationship may have been to have the loss of the closeness. You become accustomed to it near enough instantly. Thats our weakness it natural to want to feel needed and to be shown affection. Thats why when its gone we mourn it. Oh what a hug can do ..

This piece was written with a dear friend in mind but i think we can all relate to it