Heartbreak

Heartbreak There have been more than one man in my life that has told me that they love me. When I first wrote this piece I was an 18 year old who to be honest found immensely scary. However, there has only been one that I have said it back to. But the thing is that makes me feel bad but to be honest i dont think it should be said if its not meant. What makes people fall in love? I no love that all consuming feeling of wholeness and emptiness at the same time. The longing, the needing and the intense feeling of fulfilment and happiness. Your head spinning 100 miles an hour. The feeling that your feet are no longer on the ground. The fear of the feeling and of the situation going away or not being reciprocated. I also know the pain of Heartbreak when the one you love has gone and you lose all will to exist. The sickening cramps in your body that feel there ripping you apart. The realisation that the euphoria has gone and will not come back. The knowing that the memories of the good and the bad will always be with you. It is the worst thing I have ever felt the gut wrenching fear. Loneliness..